anj always makes me think...her words are poetic and insightful, season with tender grace and compelling at the same time...
today, i read her words here and i responded with the following reflection...
mothering a teenage son is themost challenging and painful part of my parenting as of yet...letting go and pursuing at the same time, space and respect, coupled with guidance and boundaries....i am in the midst and at times oh so fearful...what much it be like for the Father to hold us so loosely and love us so tightly? i have much to learn.
there is not much more to say just now, but i think i will craft a post for my family matters blog...
the painful truth is ---
at times i am at a total loss on how to love my son well as he grows into a man, how to equip him to face all that this brutal world holds, how to let go and leave that gap that tears at my mothering heart...
at times i am just afraid... and in my fear i am hesitant to trust this G-d of ours who allows so much that i cannot understand or reconcile...
at times i hold on too tightly...
at times...in the midst of my fear...i just pray and offer this young man who has my heart, to this Wild G-d of mine, who captivates my heart and soul such that there is no other option...but to pray and trust and let go...
oh Susie and anj
this resonated so much.
I have had a frightful day with my daughter (13)- i do my best and feel such a failure
thank you for this
Posted by: Lorna | October 15, 2005 at 04:52 PM
thanks lorna, i think one of the best phrases i have heard to describe this journey, is "we are all stumbling forward in the grace of G-d."
teenage daughters grow up and this tumult passes, my daughters, now 16 & 20 years old are aa delight, and the ups and downs of those early adloescent years are thankfully behind us... there are new challenges now, but i am not viewed as the "enemy" anymore ;)
hang in there...
grace and peace to you.
Posted by: susie albert miller | October 16, 2005 at 01:59 AM
stumbling forward in the grace of God :) it's lovely.
I read the Dawn Treader last night and allowed Aslan to stip me again and dress me in His robes of righteousness - in the end yesterday turned out to be a good day, a very good day afterall.
be blessed :)
Posted by: Lorna | October 16, 2005 at 03:35 AM