longings...

yesterday...i wrote 'lent begins' and today I am bombarded with the reality that even in true worship i am still left with longings...

unmet longings that exist even at the heart of worship...longing for Jesus tangible...longing for relief that are holy and righteous...for the evil to end and justice to prevail...for suffering to cease...for more than a moment of honesty or clarity...will there be hunger and thirst for righteousness in heaven?  because as I hunger for it here on earth, I realize that even Jesus who is living water...was called the man of sorrows... that he went to the woman at the well and said that he was thirsty... that he hung on the cross, an act of utter worship and love, and said "I Thirst..."   with access to all that is eternal...fully divine...Jesus was a man of sorrows... Jesus experienced thirst...soul level thirst....unmet longings...

I think about the switchfoot song lyrics..."we were meant to live for so much more...have we lost ourselves?" (see music)...does living for more mean a willingness to live with thirst? ...an awareness that our thirst will never be quenched...for if we are no longer thirsty, we will not seek the Source, we will not know need, and we will be lost in self sufficiency.  Is that part of worship, a willingness to remain thirsty...to allow longings to exist, to haunt, to torment, at times and not to deaden them, or escape, or seek relief, with full awareness that relationship with God does not bring relief...but at times only more thirst?